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So, I don’t have insurance – Haven’t really for about 5 years now. So all in the meantime – I have become a self diagnoser – well actually, I have always been one. I recently got a job and now I am in the home stretch of getting insurance. 3 months to go until I will finally be able to go to the drs. without that overcoming fear of “how am I going to pay for this?”

My parents like to tell the story of my hypochondriac-ism as a child. When I went to the drs. I would come with a list filled with every last problem I had – even then I wanted to get my monies worth. One day I was reading the list off and the dr said, “looks like she has a case of hypochondria”. I looked at him and replied – “yeahhhh and I got it reallll bad!”

Now i’m older and thanks to the Internet I can type in my symptoms and scare myself sh*tless. Thankfully I can go to the drs soon enough and see if im crazy, still a hypochondriac, or if there is actually a problem.

Here’s my list –

I think I have exercise induced asthma. I had asthma up until high school – then I stopped playing sports that required running and I was fine. Now that I graduated college I am trying to get into shape by hitting the treadmill 4 times a week. I’ve been working on it since November and still I get winded easily. I am not overweight – don’t smoke – and yet I struggle to breathe at 1/2 mile.

Ever since I remember – I have had a picking/scratching problem. The drs always told us try a different laundry detergent and try this and that – but to this day it still persists. I will tear up my legs without realizing it and who ever is around me will have to tell me to stop. It’s worse in my sleep when I have no one to wake me up and to tell me to stop. If I do wake up or the scratching becomes persistent while I am away – I have to take a scalding hot shower and then I am fine. If I have the smallest imperfection on my face, I will pick and pick at it and of course it always gets worse. It’s an OCD type of thing (though not full blown) it may be Dermatillomania. I have run out of ideas on this one.

The latest thing that has been occurring is that I have been having severe cramping. Random times throughout the month – while rules out pms or anything like that. I will have sharp sharp pains around my uterine area, or lower stomach to the point where I cant move. Sometimes i’ll be walking and I will keel over in pain. The worst time was on this past Saturday, 3 hours and I was in pain. The pains would just keep coming- it consumed my entire stomach and lower back  – and I was sobbing uncontrollably from the pain. I would like to think that I have a decently high pain tolerance since I enjoy getting tattoos. I was with my boyfriend and he kept trying to get me to go to the ER and I wanted to go – but again, there would be no way for me to foot the bill.  So I have no idea what could be going on in this case either.

Any ideas?
Or am I just crazy?

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*Don’t stare at yourself in the mirror constantly – yes the mirror does help to ensure you are using proper form – but you will look like a jackass when you keep “accidentally” exposing your chiseled abs as you lift your shirt completely up to wipe the sweat off your brow.
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So when I was in high school everyone told me that I needed to take school more seriously because I needed to go to college in order to get a good job.

Well people – I graduated with a Public Relations/Communications degree from a private school in May with a 3.4 GPA. FINALLY last week I got hired at a place that solely requires a high school diploma and I am driving  a total of 3 hours a day to work a day and back in order to earn $10 something an hour.

I look back at all of my friends from high school who worked straight out of school and they are the ones driving the nice cars, living in their own apartments, getting married, and starting families.

Where am I? $30k in debt working at a job that has nothing to do with my major going no where in life. I can’t find a job because it seems like the unemployed market is flooded with applicants for the positions I am applying for that have on top of a degree – experience. Not the route everyone had anticipated me going in 5 years ago…

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I’m just bummed out today.

Anyone that knows of any open pr/comm positions in the Aurora, Naperville, Chicagoland area – let me know.

Until then – guess i’ll have to keep on lisiting on Bonanzle and keeping my fingers crossed.

OK, first off I should say that I don’t live in poverty. I have everything I could ask for and for that I am grateful.

My mom hasn’t worked in 15 years due to a back injury.
My dad got laid off 5 years ago and no one wants to hire someone at his age, he too is physically limited to what he can do.
My story? I went to a private school for college for the past four years – paid for it all on my own by working my ass off. As soon as I graduated – couldn’t find a job to save my life. I finally got a job last week that only required a high school diploma – I sold myself short.

Even growing up with my parents and two brothers, we were never wealthy and by most peoples standards we weren’t even close to being comfortable; but we were happy.

I think since I grew up with out all the things I wanted – it made me a better person. When I was in school I always got picked on because I wore handmedowns and off brand clothes. But with that, the friends that I made were quality. They didn’t judge me on my clothes, they judged me for me and that has been what has made those relationships last.

When I do find a side job – I work my ass off. I would say I am an extremely dedicated worker and that is because I value the money. It makes no sense for a person to hire me to do a job and then half ass it.

The main thing I have been doing to supply myself with gas money is selling stuff online. I get most of my clothes used or secondhand still – but I get the name brands I always wanted. In turn when I realize I have too much I list them online and someone else can enjoy having nice clothes for a lot less than they would pay at the mall. You can see what I sell here.

Back to the original topic:

Holidays are always awkward with my boyfriend of nearly 6 years. His family showers me with gifts and spends a crapload on me. My family, we cant do that. Matt will get something small, but it has meaning behind it.

It seems like whenever I get gifts from his family – it is all about the money. His mom asked me what I wanted for Christmas. I told her I was running out of shampoo, Burts Bees, and needed new socks. This shocked her. Sure, I can afford to go out and buy this stuff myself – I am not destitute, but it would be a good gift – something I could actually use. Instead I got another Ipod – because apparently mine wasnt good enough. I am grateful to be a part of Matts family and the materialistic things they give me on the holidays blow my mind, but to me they lack substance.

For Valentines Day, our friends all made reservations to expensive resturants, the girls got beautiful jewelry etc. What did Matt n I do. We made eachother old school construction paper cards and watched Scrubs on dvd all night. I loved it.

To sum it up – to some extent I think people who grew up without the financial stability we all hope for are more senimental than those who did.

Yesterday as I was driving home from getting a TB test done I drove past a Hooters and started to think…

I for one have never been to a Hooters establishment nor will I ever go to one. For one – I think you just pay for the atmosphere and being a recent college graduate – my fine dining is all on the dollar menu. Secondly – I completely thought of Hooters as beingdegrading towards women – until yesterday.

Parading around in a skanky outfit trying to earn tips really isn’t my cup of tea. I have heard plenty of people talk about Hooters in the sense that they went there – were expecting a large chested chick to wait on them – only to get a “dud”. It was in the cases of the duds that they didn’t earn as high of a tip as they would have if they were more attractive. This is merely situational and could occur at any establishment of course but I could see it happening more at Hooters.

Now here is the idea that I picked up on yesterday – the women of Hooters could be seen as empowered. They use their sex appeal to earn higher wages. They may use the if you got it – flaunt it idea. Some women that work there are so gorgeous that they could have the men (or women) they are waiting on wrapped around their finger.

Even so, as it may seem empowering – if I ever had a daughter – I don’t think I would approve of her working at one.

And that is that.

I for one am against spousal abuse – no one should have to go through that and its a shame how often it occurs in society and how underplayed it is.

So Chris Brown is in trouble for battery against his girlfriend Rihanna. He will probably end up losing his endorsements from all/most of the companies that he works with over this case.

BUT think about this – if he got into an altercation with another man – this would not be an issue – that would just be overlooked and everything would be hunky-dory in his neck of the woods – but its not – because he struck a woman.

It just doesn’t seem fair that because he hit a woman his career is over and if he hit a guy he would seem to be a bad-ass if it even made the news. How often do we hear of women who get in trouble for striking a man? Rarely – but it occurs. Maybe men don’t report it because they don’t want to look like less of a man, maybe they don’t report it because it wont be taken seriously – whatever the case is – battery is battery regardless of sex and I think the penalties and repercussions should be more evenly distributed not only in the law system but in societies eyes as a whole.

If you haven’t noticed yet – the ideas that come from my mind are pretty nontraditional – but I hope I spark your mind to think a little bit outside of the box. If even for a moment you consider what I type to have some sort of validation – ill have a sense of accomplishment.

Michael Phelps doesn’t have much to worry about it seems…

Other celebrities are going ape shit all over the place.

Christian Bale went on his little shit fit tantrum –

Etta James said she was going to deliver an ass whooping to Beyonce –

Chris Brown is in custody for assault against a woman – right now it is speculated that it is with his girlfriend Rihanna – both missed out on the Grammys

Miley Cyrus made some slant eyes and is being called on upon as a racist –

A-Rod hit the juice –

One of the members of Saving Able and one of the bands employees are facing charges for allegedly forcing a 17 year girl to perform sexual acts on them at a concert –

Shit has hit the fan people.

BUT on the brightside – BLINK 182 has reunited!!!

My best friend Mark decided to start doing tattoos about a year and a half ago. His first victim was of course himself and then my boyfriend Matt. Then I got a lower back piece… ink above the stink… tramp stamp…whatever you will.  Since he was just starting out – they took him awhile to do so I had to do it in two sessions.

First Session Of The Tramp Stamp:

1st Stars SessionWhen he left that day (as he does house calls) I basically said screw that and i’m not getting it finished. But of course I decided I wanted color after I forgot about how bad it hurt.

Second Session Of The Tramp Stamp:

2nd Stars Session

I got the five stars for each member of my family including myself. The nautical stars represent being able to find your way home and in essence being true to yourself. The colors came about from the three track team colors I had been on. This was my first tattoo and I vowed never to get one again…

Until I forgot about the pain and decided to get my upper back done… This time around I just wanted to keep with the traditional theme and decided on some sparrows and a banner.
Originally I wanted to go with the Bob Marley quote “Who are you to judge the life I live? I know i’m not perfect and I don’t live to be, but before you start pointing fingers… make sure your hands are clean.”

Sparrows Idea

I soon realized that was too wordy for the area that I wanted to cover and searched online and found a quote that intrigued me. “Every saint has a past, ever sinner has a future.” How true that is. I think the meaning behind it goes without saying. I have a past, much of what I am not proud of but I have changed my ways and can live without constantly reminding myself of my faults. This was a three sessioner… it was rough but thanks to Vicodin – I made it through…

First Sparrow Session:

Sparrow Outline - 1st sessionThe ouline was rough…

Second Sparrow Session:

Sparrows Shaded 2nd SessionAt the start of the second session he did the shading and that needle is a bitch. I liked the way it looked and contomplated just keeping it in black and white, but…

Sparrows Colored 2ns SessionI decided I had to have it colored.

Third and Final Sparrow Session

Sparrows Done 3rd Session

And now we come to the final chapter of the tattoo saga… It is finally finished – I just got it done 2 days ago so it is still inflamed and all that but I am pretty satisfied with the results…

So I am no pro with the politics behind gay vs straight and that whole deal – but this is just an idea that popped up in my head – take it for what you will – I am just a straight girl that gets philosophical as she gets tattooed.

I don’t believe that bisexuality exists.

Yup. That my friends is my thesis. I don’t think it exists based on the simple fact that in the end (not always but most commonly) you end up with one person – your “soulmate” if you will. Bisexuality i think is  a state of confusion, or it could be seen as a path you could take until you ultimately choose what feels right to you. You can be attracted to the different sexes and have one preference over the other and not realize it. I think after you spend a while in the “bisexual” dating pool you will find that perfect fit for you whether it is a man or a woman will determine your gay or straightness.

This theory goes to crap though once you bring in trans-genders and all that jazz.

Just my two cents – I don’t think this should offend anyone but I welcome any comments you may have on this topics. My boyfriend and I got into a debate and he shot me dead in the water without really taking my ideas into consideration so really I am looking for a few honest opinions.

I love the 1950’s.

I sometimes think I was born too late. My mom collects antiques and stuff so I am fortunate enough to be able to surround myself with the decor. Like the table…

The Booth

I wish I could aspire to be a housewife – Laura Petrie they could call me. I love the shows Lucy, Dick Van Dyke, Leave it to Beaver, Lassie…

My dream car is a 1957 Chevy BelAir.

I always wanted to marry a greaser but I suppose Matt will do.

The clothing of the era is timeless and classic.

I’m glad the poof is back in for hairstyles because that is the only retro way I can fix mine.

I started my tattoo collection – I have two on my back so far – both 50’s inspired with the nautical stars and sparrows – can’t wait to fill up all that space…

And then there is Pin-Up. Bettie Page, Marilyn Monroe, real women, true beauties… crazy lifestyles but i’ll save that for another post.

True Beauty

Anywhoots – this was inspired by my latest listing on Bonanzle – Vintage Coloring/Sticker books from the 1950’s. I have doubles from my collection so I guess I could part with them. Even if you have no intention of buying anything – check them out – I think they are absolutely gorgeous – but then again – I am partial…

Bonanzle Booth

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